total surrender

will i follow you in total surrender?
why should i?
you know its difficult for me...
is it really i?

totus tuus

when there was me and you

by Katherine

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's

Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

havin' a hard tym being human..

emotions keep on pouring...
my simple, messy life is getting complicated yet im liking it...
my heart of stone changed...
somebody gave it flesh...
somebody pumped blood in it...
somebody made my heart "feel" once again
that being thawed my frost infested mind...
my once stagnant brain is now fully operational...
i know its hard...
but i want to be human for her!




*made before oct. 6 pero still applicable...

have you ever felt vampiric?

a gap in my judgement...
a void in my heart..
dark clouds help as i hide myself..
lies.... lies.... i flush with shame!
there is no slumber for me at night,
the day offers no comfort at all.
i live on pretense emotions
wait... i do not live,
i merely exist.
where do i go from here?
heaven offers no refuge
and hell is no sanctuary.
earth is no purgatory...
i belong nowhere...
was i really meant to live..
or merely to exist?

hush

noise... turn up the volume!
laughter... breaking my eardrum.
tears... im drowning in it
pain... better off than dead
hush.. hush... i think its what she said

seemingly there....but still nowhere

in the deepest recesses of my thoughts i was there...
my greatest joy was at hand... or so i thought?!
i gave her my soul to the bare...
but look at the damage it brought...

i try to think not of dark imaginings
but still faint traces of them appear.
did i really love you from the beginning?
Nay, but still my love is sincere...

how could i have been so blind not to see...
the darkness of my plight...
but still my life belongs to me...
blue skies, i plead... come on the first crack of light!

is it that i am effortless?
or is it the absence of faith?
either way i must confess...
i could wait... i would really wait

para kang c***re

pare, void!
wa koi mana pare...
stun bai!
sori... di makita ni ngitngit....

wrath zeus!
atay! wa namatay...
mag-vanguard ko part?!
cge! para gahi ka pareha nako...

bai, push nata!
ayaw sa bai... mag-aegis sa ko...
tabang sa tunga cuats!
sa ubos ra ko!

boss... bangaa aning cuatre noh?!
mao jud! 100 imo gi bayranan noob (randyll)
dakua oi! pero cge lang pildi man si cuatre...
bossing: hahaha... ginansiya na sad ko!

diis aliter visum

we should have been happy...
the gods think otherwise.

we should be right beside each other...
the gods think otherwise.

we should have not listened to others....
the gods think otherwise.

the gods should control my life....
for once I THINK OTHERWISE!!!!

kinopya gikan ni auggie fillart(1980-2002)

i am...you are...


i am superman
you are my kryptonite
i am darkness
you are my light
i am abel
you are my cain
i am romeo
you are my poison
i am God
you are nothing
exit my mind
exit my heart
exit my soul
i dont need you...
you muthafuckin' whore

seemingly there...

in the deepest recesses of my thoughts i was there...
my greatest joy was at hand... or so i thought?!
i gave her my soul to the bare...
but look at the damage it brought...

how could i have been so blind not to see...
the darkness of my plight...
but still my life belongs to me...
blue skies, i plead... come on the first crack of light!

diis aliter visum

the gods decided otherwise!